All you people, can’t you see, can’t you see
Written by hootenannie on July 14th, 2009Today, I am back to reality – back to Nashville, back to the heat, back to work, back to the gym, back to balancing my checkbook, back to routine, back to a schedule.
It feels quite wretched, so much so that I accidentally started bawling last night when I got back – “accidentally” being that I didn’t mean to… it just happened. Then Julie and Mel and I laid in a circle on my bedroom floor, each of us curled on our side, and I felt a little bit better.
But returning from vacation can feel unstomachable – especially when the previous 12 days had been full of so many good things: family, mountains, ocean, orcas, food, wine, Seattle, music, friends, and dancing to Backstreet Boy’s “Larger Than Life” at Miranda and Will’s wedding.
1999 never sounded so good. Not even in 1999.
In my absence from real life (i.e. The Internet), I missed Michael Jackson’s funeral, Steve McNair’s murder, Sarah Palin’s resignation, any 4th of July festivities, and the electric bill. Also, I gained 10 lbs.
Not that I know. But I KNOW.
I’m overwhelmed with all that I have to catch up on, make up for, rein in, cut out, and resume. My inbox piled up with emails while I was away, but don’t worry – no one called me except for collections agencies looking for one “Daniel Perkins.”
Today, I sally forth, and will dig myself out of this funk.
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Beautiful on the previous post – so so true and hard and conversation-with-the-Lord producing. More like yelling sometimes for me.
Anyway – on this one – yes…life comes along. Good job with embracing it in all of its regularness. Trust me, it is better to be really feeling all of that than to just shut down and let it wash by. Keep wrapping your arms around it all.
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oh annie, thanks for this. and i feel ya. i got back from a family vacation on thursday night, but as i went to sleep last night i started accidentally bawling too (by myself, though). i couldn’t really figure out why, other than a general sense of being overwhelmed with life at the moment. and then i felt kind of embarrassed, even though no one knew but me (and Jesus, haha). now i feel less silly, more normal. or at least, not alone.
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two things:
a. I feel like bawling accidentally all the time lately, and I haven’t even been on vacation. Seaons such as these are dark, and tiring, and seemingly neverending. But this too shall pass.
b. I will proofread your “What DID Daniel Perkins Do?” biography, if need be.
you’re my renaissance woman. :)
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You eloquently speak for so many of us. Post vacation depression hit me hard Sunday. Now I am starting to wonder if the desire to run, budget, check my mailbox, wake up in the morning, etc will ever return?? Reality BITES!!!!
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i hear taking long walks with your friends help :)
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Confession: I feel like this some days, even when I’m not just coming back from vacation. Sometimes all the trappings of adulthood just. aren’t. fun.
Sorry friend. But I’m glad you’re back! I’ve been missing hottenannie!
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Emily – “hottenannie” is an even better moniker than “hootenannie.” I NEVER EVEN THOUGHT OF THAT ONE!!
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Sometimes I’m wonder if going on vacation is even worth it, just because of how hard it is to come back. Maybe that’s a sign that changes need to be made?
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Welcome back! Even though I don’t comment much, I’ve missed your blogs. I hope your vacation was wonderful (sounds like it was) and that your re-entry isn’t too soul-jarring (sounds like it maybe was but hopefully isn’t by now).
Keep up the posts!