Revival
Written by hootenannie on February 1st, 2010It’s been awhile since I’ve talked about my feeeeeelings. For those of you wishing to keep a finger on the pulse of my emotional health, this one’s for you.
I remember around this time two years ago, soon after I had moved to Nashville, feeling lonely and afraid and sad.
This move could not be more different.
Not much scares me these days. I don’t know why this is, why this time I feel so much more stable and confident – maybe because my reasons for moving are different than what they were two years ago. Maybe because of what I experienced in my time in Nashville. Maybe because I’m just a little bit older.
Nashville was an amazing two years – but it was loud, and it was painful. I will never be sorry for the time that I spent there, but to be honest, it felt like being put through a cheese grater. A big part of me died while I was there. I was stripped of a lot of things: dreams, expectations, confidence, even truth.
A lot of times, I forgot what I know to be true.
This past month has been quiet and understated – a welcome change from the chaos of my life for the past two years. I miss my friends in Tennessee, and start to feel a bit left out when I think of their lives going on together and without me (because how could they possibly live without me?), but most of the time, I feel calm. My heart feels still.
I have no idea and no expectations for what this season in life will be or bring about. But I am seeing glimmers of revival in the parts of my heart that I thought were dead and gone. It feels foreign, but it feels like hope.
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I freakin’ love you. That is all.
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Revival is good. I know that Nashville may not have been what you thought it might, but God had a purpose for sending you there. It’ll be exciting to discover His purposes in the years to come. In the meantime, God bless you in Denver, Annie!
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REVIIIIIIVAL! Did you ever hear this? Stick with it, it gets really good when they jam out.
http://popup.lala.com/popup/504684646421432408
I am glad for you Annie. I feel many of the same things that you do these days. I’m glad you feel calm and still. We all need that too.
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No wait, that wasn’t the song I was thinking of where they jam. This is the one. Minute 3:24
http://www.lala.com/#album/504684633536530520
xoxoxo
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Annie Parsons you tease me so. I’m always left with so many questions… What truth? What dreams? What expectations? I know it’s none of my business but I always want to hear (or read as it were). Glad to see you’re liking it out there…
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But… but…
How can you live in Denver without skiing???!?
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I am glad for you, Annie. These seasons of quiet are important, too.