Not to be dramatic, but my goal of having zero nervous breakdowns in 2013 is hanging in the balance.

Fine, that was dramatic.

They say the only constant is change – and I hate them for it – but it’s proven true in my life time and time again. In the past few weeks, I’ve experienced changes at work, changes in relationships, changes in my bank account, changes to my reality. I’m about to be a bridesmaid for the 13th time, our family changing yet again – this time the addition of another brother-in-law. I’m in the process of purging my closet and household items, preparing for yet another move. I’m behind on all forms of personal communication, and the thought of catching up is exhausting. I just got a haircut that surprises me every time I look in the mirror (not in a good way). All the while, I’m working my tail-end off at work, coming home so mentally drained that all I want to do is turn off my phone and lean my forehead to the doorframe.

Life is going fast, and I can’t keep up. I’m trying to do everything well, which leaves me doing nothing well – and man, I love to hit the mark.

All this to say, thank you for being here, no matter how much or how little I have to offer. Right now, it feels like very little. But the opportunity to share a little sliver of my life and have it received for whatever it is (currently Crazy-Town) helps me breathe just a little bit easier.

Hanging in there, cat on a tree branch,



  1. Annika on April 12, 2013 at 12:25 PM

    THIS is how I know you’re an angel, Annie. Your life is crazy-busy, and yet you reach out and touch the lives of strangers with simple acts of kindness. (I look at the earrings every day and smile)

    Have faith that this next moment, hour, night, day is a fresh moment–full of new, unexpected thoughts, emotions and dreams. It will be what you make of it.

    The largest, stressful, chaotic moments of my 29 years of life have led to the most wonderful memories and incredible experiences. It just took wading through those murky waters to get there.

    Know that I relate so, so well to what you’re going through, and I’m excited for you to come out on the other side of it–because it’s going to be transformational, I just know it. :)

  2. The Bug on April 12, 2013 at 12:33 PM

    What she said :)

  3. Alexis on April 12, 2013 at 12:39 PM

    Oh girl…your words echo mine. Totally exhausted, nothing left to give and hanging on by a thread. I feel like if someone else asks me for “one tiny thing” I might just head-butt them out of sheer frustration. I keep hoping my clone will emerge and take over this crazy-town so that I can hide in a cave at the beach. In the meantime, it’s baby steps through each part of my day with the shining promise of a vacation just 7 days away (praise God!). Hang in there, friend. There’s always an end and upswing in the future. Holding onto hope with you…

  4. Katie @ cakes, tea and dreams on April 12, 2013 at 1:54 PM

    I so relate to this, sweet Annie. Hanging in there with you.

  5. Dani from WA on April 12, 2013 at 2:15 PM

    “I don’t want to be dramatic, but I would literally rather be shot in the face than eat this stupid food.”
    -Baby Mama

    It was the first thing I thought of as I started this post…I am hoping it made you laugh in the midst of the craziness.

  6. Becca Groves on April 12, 2013 at 5:34 PM

    I read this and the thought in my head was, “maybe she’s moving to Minnesota! wouldn’t that be awesome if she moved to Minnesota?!!”

    I guess that makes me a fan/weirdo/cheerleader from afar…

    I hope this weekend brings a chance to catch your breath.

  7. Beth on April 13, 2013 at 1:57 AM

    You said it. Could describe my life ditto at this moment. It is crazy town. So much change leaves one a little whiplashed at times. Will pray for you, as I am for me, that things will slooww down soon, for grace for the season, and for the Lord to bring some sweet relief. Thanks for making me realize it’s not Population: 1 in CrazyTown!

  8. Michael Rhyne on April 13, 2013 at 9:58 AM

    Keep breathing. Someone once wrote a very meaningful song about waking up every single morning and willing your feet to hit the floor. It has become something of a mantra for me. I care very much for that person, and she remains in my thoughts and prayers, wherever she may find herself. I know CrazyTown well! It’s where we live from time to time, but it doesn’t define us.

  9. Emily Croston on April 13, 2013 at 12:25 PM

    I don’t really know you or any specifics regarding what you’re going through, but I’m praying for you to find clarity…or guidance…or wisdom….or whatever it is you need right now.

  10. HopefulLeigh on April 13, 2013 at 2:38 PM

    Oh, Annie. We’ve all been there. Hope Crazytown settles down SOON.

  11. Sharon on April 18, 2013 at 12:07 AM

    I love you Annie P.

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