Emotions

Steady goes

There have been a lot of times in the past several years when I have needed courage.  Between the ending of relationships, and a solo cross-country move, and feeling so alone I could barely breathe, and being relatively destitute, and getting roommates, and starting to share my music for the first time, and introducing myself…

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Tangled

Back in March, I went to Kansas to sort through my childhood things and help my parents get their house ready to sell.  While I was there, I found an old jewelry box full of various plastic beaded bracelets, butterfly rings, earrings with no mates, and many, many necklaces whose thin gold chains were knotted…

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A new day

“If you had no job, you could be so productive!” This is basically the biggest lie since “There are no cats in America.” I believed it. I fell for it. I spent my working days fantasizing about all that I could get done if I didn’t have a job: reading, writing, exercising, cooking, cleaning, organizing…

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My current feelings, stolen from others

“I don’t know the key to success, but the key to failure is trying to please everybody.” -Bill Cosby “I have never seen a greater monster or miracle than myself.” -Michel Eyquem de Montaigne (1533-1592) “Truth is beautiful, without a doubt; but so are lies.” -Ralph Waldo Emerson (1803-1882) “Help!  I’m being held prisoner by…

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Weightless

Yesterday, I threw away my scale. Just like that. Trashed. Into the dumpster. I am a compulsive weight-checker, always keeping tabs on my poundage, and consequently tempted to feel either good or bad, happy or sad, proud or ashamed, jubilant or angry. It’s amazing how a great day can be ruined by a number –…

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Permission

I might always run a little late in the mornings. I might always love Whitney Houston key changes. I might always color-code my closet. I might always get annoyed when people open a new box of crackers / gallon of milk / bottle of mustard before they’ve finished the old one. I might always hate…

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Waterworks

We are 12 days away from the dreaded transition to digital TV – although it’s not so much of a “transition” as it is a “bitch slap.” A belly-flop straight into the lavas of hell. No, I did not purchase a converter box. It’s not that worth it to me. But I will miss my…

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What a good night’s sleep and a good hair day can do

Regarding yesterday’s post, here’s what I am learning. When I am feeling super lame and lousy, I should ask myself the following questions: • Have I gotten enough sleep? (Usually, if I am feeling terrible, the answer will be no. I am becoming more and more convinced that getting enough sleep should be my number…

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Rudimentary

This is the birth, the commencement, the inception of my blog. I cannot promise that it will always be deep and meaningful, but I can promise that it will always be authentic. Wait, this is a public site… so… yeah, actually? It might be contrived sometimes. Annie Dillard writes, “We live half our waking lives…

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