Changes looming
Perhaps it is this murky, rainy weather. Maybe the fact that I am wearing a black turtleneck in August. Possibly the reality that Katie Freeze wrote me a deliciously morose song to record for my demo on Thursday. Whatever the reason, it is beginning to feel a bit autumnal – and am I ever glad.
In recent years, I have learned to embrace the summer. I no longer hide underneath layers of clothing, terrified of blinding people with my pale skin. I have come to understand the joy of barbeques, sunshine, and my bold freckles; everyone in Seattle is cheerful and buoyant in the summer months. I get it. The warmth and the outdoor activities are a welcome change from the grey gloom of winter.
But on the day in late July when the boots are once again for sale at Nordstrom, deep down inside, I rejoice. Blame it on my naturally somber disposition, but I love the cozy melancholy of the darker months.
Three weeks from tomorrow, I embark on The Big Trip, which means that in three weeks, it will be The Fall. I CANNOT BELIEVE IT. After seven years in this amazing city that I have come to call “home,” The Fall is three short weeks away… meaning that in three weeks, I will be a wanderer. I have experienced the odd sensation of “running in place” for about the past month or so; there is nothing that I need to do to prepare for my departure, aside from simply exist and pass the time doing what I always do: wake up, eat breakfast, go to work, spend time with friends, go to rehearsal, walk at least 6-miles, and of course, now, go to hot yoga.
Life feels suspiciously normal. And yet, potentially life-altering changes are afoot. Simultaneously, I feel a thrill at the possibilities, and an anxiety at the reality of what I’ve chosen to do. Which… is kind of a cool place to dwell. But uncomfortable.
Currently, I am grateful for today, a day that points toward the changing season. I need all the preparation I can get. After all, I am a J.
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tags: Change | The Big Trip
You need to read Into The Wild before/during the big trip. That is a must.
Wow, the big trip is coming up soon! have fun with hot yoga, that sounds insanely reviving.
Wow, the big trip is coming up soon! have fun with hot yoga, that sounds insanely reviving.
Change is beautiful, and exciting, and unpredictable. It’s something that an INFJ hesitates to embrace, but I am so proud of you for taking this HUGE step forward :) We have a lot of hanging out to do in the next few weeks before you leave me.
Love,
Your favorite ENFP
Ummm, I hate to tell you and I hope this doesn’t change your plans but we’ve just had our 14th day in August of temps OVER 100. I can’t imagine it being any hotter and the thought of a black turtleneck just made me break out into sweat and turn down the air.
It will for sure be cooler in October when you arrive. I just hope you stay past May.