Home-less? Home-full?
I spent a large part of this weekend wondering why I ever left Seattle. I miss it – everything about it, except for the slugs. I miss my friends and the weather and the water and the way that the streets never quite run in a straight line. I miss the yummy coffee and salmon and sushi. I miss my beloved Wallingford. I miss the smell of the air. I really, really miss Lake Union.
Mostly, I miss the fact that I am KNOWN in Seattle. I don’t have to explain my back-story, and I don’t feel like I have to be “on” in order to make people like me. In Seattle, I feel like I belong.
But that is not to say that I need to be living there right now. I DO belong there. But maybe I can belong other places, too.
I arrived back at my little Nashville abode tonight, and I breathed a big ol’ sigh of relief. I rolled in my suitcases and checked the mailbox and spent a little while unpacking. It’s nice to be back home.
Home.
This is my “for right now” home. And even though things may not be as easy or natural for me here right now, I am glad that I came. I’m glad that I’m here. Nashville is great, and the people that I have been meeting here are wonderful, and this is where I am for right now.
What am I going to do with this time?
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that is exactly how colorado is for me. and even though i have been meeting great people here, i can still feel completely lonely sometimes.
i just wonder when anywhere will feel like home again.
First of all, we won’t be home til we’re with Christ, so…’longing’, ‘discomfort’ are a good reminder of that.
Second of all, what will you do? You’ll be like Paul in jail, or Einstein in the patent office; you’ll be you in a way that you couldn’t if you were in Seattle and busy/complacent. It’s just a season, but you are there ‘for such a time as this.’
Third of all, YOU ARE FABULOUS.
oh, and fourth of all, I wish I could have talked to Graham longer than one minute at UW where he may have experienced me as a shoe stalker rather than the INFJ, annieandgraham 1 and 4 awesomeness that I am. Oh well.
I will tell you what you can do with your time:
Introduce me to good music. I finally took your advice and listened in depth to A Fine Frenzy.
Oh. My. Gosh.
Every song was my new favorite song.
I am glad you got to return to Seattle. To see your friends and your beloved places – but most of all I am proud of you for leaving it behind to go into the unknown. I am impressed and excited for you every day.
Annie…yeah, I went through that when we moved from Vancouver. It’s interesting, though…in one of my community groups at Regent, we asked the question: If you were in The Wizard of Oz, would you be searching for a heart, courage, a brain, or a home? Most of us said a home.
Free time…have you considered taking up a hobby…like rubber stamping???
Cute pic of you and your man!