Sandy Hook
I spent the weekend like so many others did: glued to the news, refreshing the websites every hour, watching every interview, every commentary. Along with the rest of the nation, I am horrified at the Sandy Hook Elementary School shooting, and at a loss for how to process it.
I took a long walk on Saturday, and another on Sunday. I prayed for the families, and found myself taking deep breaths, thinking of those who must feel like they can barely breathe. I poured over the victims’ names, and recited them over and over in my head: Charlotte, Daniel, Rachel, Olivia, Josephine… I thought of my friends who have buried their children in the past, and how we’ve wished that no one ever experience that pain again.
I listened as pundits along with everyday Joes spouted their opinions on gun control, mental health, and policy change. When I walked around the Cherry Creek Mall on Saturday, I felt nervous. I saw a security guard, and stopped him. “Thank you for being here,” I said. He smiled and patted my shoulder.
We need Christmas – not because of the happy feelings it evokes, or the distraction, or the sentimentality. We need Christmas because it’s the only hope that we have: a baby born into darkness, a Father giving up his Son so that when parents lose their own children, it isn’t the end of the story.
Until then, I’m heartbroken.
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tags: Annie Parsons | Christmas | Grief | Newtown | Sandy Hook Elementary | Tragedy | Tragedy
Yes. Heartbroken. With hope.
I’ve been struggling for days to put into words what I wanted to say about this in my own blog. Something about reading yours sent things in the right direction finally. Thank you!
I love you, Annie. Your heart is so tender, and you are pointing us toward the truth. It isn’t the end of the story. amen
I second your mom’s emotions…I love your tender heart. I cling to the same hope. When Love is Lord over heaven and earth, how can we keep from singing?
Amen.
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