Dreams

Last night, I dreamed that I was in a bridesmaid dress – a long, flowing, strapless sage gown.  My hair was lovely, my makeup perfect, and I felt pretty. Except – oh no! – there was a war going on.  With bullets flying everywhere, I ran through a very chaotic Wal-Mart – only to take…

If everything were up to me, I tell you what I’d do: I’d always have a good hair day and never have the flu. I’d sleep in ’til whenever and I’d stay up ’til it’s late, My bank account would overflow and then I’d celebrate. I’d eat whate’er I wanted and I’d never gain a…

(A word of caution: Prepare yourself not for art, or beauty, or wisdom, or humor, or insight… but simply for an explosion of my heart.) Remember this mysterious, ambiguous entry? I received an email this morning: Annie, Congratulations! You’ve passed our audition process… And on June 21, 2009, I’ll be fulfilling one of my biggest…

It is impossible to be courageous without first being afraid. It is impossible to be courageous without first deciding that you are willing to fail. It is impossible to be courageous without first accepting the possibility that your very best efforts might truly prove you to be inadequate and out of your league. – –…

It’s hard to believe – impossible to believe – but one year ago today I moved away from Seattle. I just went back and re-read the entry I wrote that day, and it remains one of the most honest things I have ever written; it hits at a deep place, even 365 days later… excuse…

I am leaving a green house where marijuana is being grown. It is dark outside. I am by the ocean. All of a sudden, from out of nowhere, I am attacked by a bison. At first, I think it is a buffalo. But as I yell, “I am being attacked by a buffalo!” some unknown…

“Brick walls are there for a reason: they let us prove how badly we want things.” –Randy Pausch

At the beginning of 2007, I had plans for my life. These dreams included a variety of comforts: relationships and love and meaning, income and stability, smiles and music and laughter. I dreamed of a tidy existence, from a job that I loved all the way to a front-loading, designer-color washer and dryer. I had…

Things I Must Do In My Lifetime -or- The Living Big – a detailed account (continued…) 76) Make a balloon animal. 77) Have a respectable savings account. 78) Write an anonymous note and leave it for a stranger to find. 79) Find a cure for hiccups (I’m really close). 80) Figure out why everyone has…

Things I Must Do In My Lifetime -or- The Living Big – a detailed account (continued…) 51) Cultivate a bonsai tree. 52) Go whale watching. 53) Love the people who drive me the most crazy. 54) Live in Seattle again. 55) Ice skate without falling. 56) Read the entire Bible. 57) Eat at Canlis. 58)…