Allowing myself one day to wallow


After being sent home at 1:30 yesterday afternoon, I put on my sweats and made a cheesecake. Then I fell asleep around 5:30, not waking up until 9pm. I felt like hell and looked like death, all sweaty and splotchy-faced. Then I took 3 doses of nighttime cold medicine and slept from 11pm until 10am.

When I woke up this morning, I made some coffee and walked around the house, looking at things. “Oh, look. There are my books. And there is the coffee table. I will start the dishwasher. It is sunny outside. The floor is dirty.” Then I went to Wal-Mart and bought some paper plates and plastic forks, and came home and made this sign:


Yes, I free-handed those fancy recycle arrows. I clearly have time on my hands.

We are having our long-awaited housewarming party tonight, and so I’ve been busy preparing for 100 people to descend. Mostly, that means walking around and looking at things and thinking thoughts.

It’s been sort of a pathetic day.

And so, I, Annie, hereby swear that, until I find a job again, I will:
– Wake up at a decent hour every day.
– Take showers, even though I might not need to.
– Diligently search for work.
– Keep on blogging. A girl needs SOME kind of purpose to her days.
– Do whatever it takes to pay my rent, even if it means taking a job at an extermination company. I probably won’t work for a sewage company, though. I have to draw the line somewhere.
– Hope and hope and hope, and not get mad at everyone who has income, and smile every day, even when I feel like kicking The Man in the balls.

Um. Happy weekend, jolly readers.



  1. Joey on February 20, 2009 at 4:26 PM

    Some of your Texas readers believe you should be some sort of columnist or professional blogger.

  2. Tad on February 20, 2009 at 4:51 PM

    Oh Annie, I know exactly how you feel. I went through three months of unemployment before finding a job at the camera store. All I can say about that time is “Good thing I was building a model ship for Gaff & the Umin staff.”

    Good for you for setting some goals for your days. Keep your head up and eyes open. You never know what you may find. Since “Traditional Jobs” are hard to come by at the moment, try thinking of unorthodox ways you can make your many tallents make you money.

    I drew the line at flipping burgers. I figure I’m doing ok as long as I’m not flipping burgers.

  3. Emily from Seattle on February 20, 2009 at 5:57 PM

    There has GOT to be something out there for you that won’t involve extermination or sewage…unless God really, really wants you to kill some bugs or do whatever it is people do with sewage. I’ll keep my fingers crossed that He has other ideas. :D

  4. Mandy on February 20, 2009 at 11:17 PM

    Okay, so I emailed you back before reading this, but now I’m serious–you HAVE to check out BOTH of the following websites:

    I work for both companies so you know they’re legit and they both pay well. AND, you can stay in your sweatpants all day since they’re both work at home jobs. Try them–I hope something comes through for you!

  5. Greta on February 21, 2009 at 2:12 PM

    I know you think Sufjan Stevens is too changely, but I listened to his song “Chicago” this morning, and these words made me think of you:

    you came to take us
    all things go, all things go
    to recreate us
    all things grow, all things grow

    Hope this all results in some kind of new birth. It IS coming up on springtime. :)

  6. Eric on February 21, 2009 at 11:17 PM

    Welcome to unemployment. ive been here for almost 2 months. thank goodness for tax returns. im working on where to draw the line. at this point, data entry with excel is my cut-off point. good luck. with your writing skillz, im sure you will find one much easier than I.

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  8. [not the] Best Blog Ever on February 23, 2009 at 9:44 AM

    Hang in there, Annie! Remember the One who promises to take care of all our needs – not necessarily the wants, but the needs are surely covered. :)

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