Revival
It’s been awhile since I’ve talked about my feeeeeelings. For those of you wishing to keep a finger on the pulse of my emotional health, this one’s for you.
I remember around this time two years ago, soon after I had moved to Nashville, feeling lonely and afraid and sad.
This move could not be more different.
Not much scares me these days. I don’t know why this is, why this time I feel so much more stable and confident – maybe because my reasons for moving are different than what they were two years ago. Maybe because of what I experienced in my time in Nashville. Maybe because I’m just a little bit older.
Nashville was an amazing two years – but it was loud, and it was painful. I will never be sorry for the time that I spent there, but to be honest, it felt like being put through a cheese grater. A big part of me died while I was there. I was stripped of a lot of things: dreams, expectations, confidence, even truth.
A lot of times, I forgot what I know to be true.
This past month has been quiet and understated – a welcome change from the chaos of my life for the past two years. I miss my friends in Tennessee, and start to feel a bit left out when I think of their lives going on together and without me (because how could they possibly live without me?), but most of the time, I feel calm. My heart feels still.
I have no idea and no expectations for what this season in life will be or bring about. But I am seeing glimmers of revival in the parts of my heart that I thought were dead and gone. It feels foreign, but it feels like hope.
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I freakin’ love you. That is all.
Revival is good. I know that Nashville may not have been what you thought it might, but God had a purpose for sending you there. It’ll be exciting to discover His purposes in the years to come. In the meantime, God bless you in Denver, Annie!
REVIIIIIIVAL! Did you ever hear this? Stick with it, it gets really good when they jam out.
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I am glad for you Annie. I feel many of the same things that you do these days. I’m glad you feel calm and still. We all need that too.
No wait, that wasn’t the song I was thinking of where they jam. This is the one. Minute 3:24
http://www.lala.com/#album/504684633536530520
xoxoxo
Annie Parsons you tease me so. I’m always left with so many questions… What truth? What dreams? What expectations? I know it’s none of my business but I always want to hear (or read as it were). Glad to see you’re liking it out there…
But… but…
How can you live in Denver without skiing???!?
I am glad for you, Annie. These seasons of quiet are important, too.